In the moment!

I look at you

An emotion overpowers me

And in the moment

I let myself be

 

My Being is defined

Around You

To you, I owe

Everything there is and could be

And yet in the cacophony

I hear nothing

 

The sleep eludes me

The time betrays me

I put my faith

And it erodes me

And in the moment

I let myself be

 

You are the Creator

The Master

My strong believer

And yet in your eyes

I don’t see me

You are my quintessential necessity

But in the hour of need

You ignore me

Still, I look up to you

And feel complete

My emotions overwhelm me

 

You are to me

What they’ll ever be

A reason to trust

But be just

A reason to thrive

But survive

And in that moment

I let myself be

* Pic from net

Daily Prompt: Audience of One!

Picture the one person in the world you really wish were reading your blog. Write her or him a letter.

Daily Prompt has popped a question for me and although it was a tough decision to choose between Santa Claus and my 2.5 year old daughter, it’s the latter who won in a heartbeat. And I do know she cannot read any of this now but I hope someday she does and until then I’ll keep modifying it! :-)

My dearest Ladybug,

They say life is a journey and in this journey comes along people that change you and your life dramatically. Of course for good. For you I’d say, although you came along in my life but I’m proud I played a teeny role in creating you. You are the God’s gift that I’d always be thankful for. The day you were born everyone was ecstatic and welcomed you with open arms. Suddenly we had this over burst of energy and happiness that knew no bounds and holding you in my arms made me realize what it feels like to be a mother. In these past 2.5 years, we’ve both learnt and grown so much together.

It is so true when they say that you get a second chance on your childhood through your kid. I’m beginning to see a new world through your eyes and deriving pleasure from activities that I had long forgotten. You teach me every day what unconditional love truly means. You are at such a tender age and already turning out to be independent in making your choices. Like the other day when I was taking out the clothes for you to wear, you were so upset and ended up deciding what you’d want to wear. As years go by, I know I may not agree with you and your choices all the times, especially during your teens, but know this that I’d always have your best interest in mind.

Trust me when I say not everything is hunky-dory all the time. There are days when you are extremely difficult to handle and throw tantrums and our bond is tested but we sail through and come around as strong as ever. I can only hope and wish that as you grow up and I grow with you, the relationship blossoms into friendship than just a mother and daughter. Even if you experience an iota of pleasure in our relationship as I share with my mother, I’d be content that I raised you well.  I hope you get to feel the bliss of closeness and openness that can be there in a mother-daughter relationship.

Today while I was writing this post, I stumbled upon these beautiful lines which sum up my emotions for you so aptly. :-

“If the sun had a daughter and if he was to give his little girl away in marriage to a guy and send her off to a new family, he would know what darkness is!”

Such is my love for you and may you always know this in your heart that behind all the differences, fights, disagreements (big or small) we’ll have, there is a heart that beats for you the strongest.

Your strongest supporter ever,

Mumma

Daily Prompt: Take It From Me!

If anything, I’m a Queen when it comes to giving advice but it sure does happen that I don’t quiet follow what I say at times. And Daily Prompt threw just the right question for me to write upon:

“What’s the best piece of advice you’ve given someone that you failed to take yourself?”

 

My best advice I’ve failed innumerable times: “Free yourself from expectations!”

“Practice what you preach” is such a cliched and overly abused adage but still the only one that holds more value than the rest. And while I’d love to be the one who leads by example, often times, I’m caught in the middle. I’m not sure why but I’ve always had people open up to me caviling about their life and the ups and downs of their numerous relationships. I’ve always lamented them for leading their lives so full of expectations, be it from their job, relationship or even life itself. The act of introspection arises when every time I am asked the question how do I live my life without expectations?

It’s easier said than done to not have expectations at all and base your whole life in just giving without expecting anything in return. The truth is it isn’t easy to do this and one has to be at peace with oneself at all times to experience it. And while I do consider it is the best advice anyone can give you to live a life free of inhibitions and intimidation, I haven’t perfected the art myself. Sometimes, you know the right thing to do which demands no expectation and still you expect in return. It is only human.

Life teaches us many lessons as we all try to explore ourselves while discovering our true purpose of being here. The thing is to be able to free oneself from the unwanted baggage that we carry along; we should be able to see the bigger picture. It isn’t what others do that should reflect our next actions instead it is what we do, irrespective of the others’ actions, define us. And the only way to do this is when you are able to give and not be worried about anything in return. You cannot base your actions with the question in mind “What’s in it for me?” Be it a relationship you share with your spouse, friends, family, peers or your professional life in general.

It is when you walk, talk, read, write, feel for yourself, and not how it would be perceived and whether you’d achieve what you are aiming for is when you liberate your soul and experience the ultimate happiness.

Lord Krishna in The Holy Geeta has said:-

“Karm karte jaa; phal ki chinta mat kar.”

(Do what you ought to do without thinking or expecting the results.)

And as good as it sounds on paper, it is indeed difficult to live your life fully without expectations and that’s where I fail myself at times. I’m still learning to be at peace only with myself first over and above anything else but at end of the day it appears I’m just a mere mortal after all.

*Pic is from the net.

Reminiscing!

Reminiscing…

The childhood days

Those carefree times

Brimming with mirth

Reminiscing…

The pillow fights

Throwing tantrums in fright

And then running out of sight

Reminiscing…

The splashing of water

Licking ice creams

While drenched in the rain

Reminiscing…

Playing pranks on friends

Grimacing to no end

The impromptu singing and dancing

Reminiscing…

Chasing butterflies

Sitting point blank

And staring at the sky

Hoping, wishing, praying

Reminiscing…

The pleasure and the pain

Of growing up

The joys and sorrows

Of the daily chores

Reminiscing…

All those moments

That makes life so exceptional

When God does the trick

And we call it “Magic”

Reminiscing…

Moments when you feel everything

But see nothing

Those “special somethings”

And “sweet nothings”

Reality Award Blog!

You know it’s definitely my day or else there’s no other explanation for being nominated for two awards in a day. I started off the day with one and sign off with another one. Thanks Sapna for the lovely award. Appreciate it. I am truly honored.

 

Below are the rules for the REALITY blog award:

1. Answer the 5 questions

2. Nominate 8 other bloggers

Questions:

1. If you could change one thing, what would you change?

Ans: Well, as Aamir says in Dil Chahta Hai: Perfection ko improve karna mushkil hai. (You can’t improve perfection.) ;) :-)

On a serious note, my stubbornness and innate quality of saying No first even if I’d say Yes in the next moment is something I’m trying to change.

2. If you could repeat an age, what would it be?

Ans: I’d definitely want to go back to my childhood, around 5 years of age, when the mind is so sharp and inquisitive about the surroundings. So carefree and nothing to worry about.

3. What one thing really scares you?

Ans: That one day I’ll wake up with amnesia and will struggle to recognize my family and friends, my true rockstars. Irrespective of good or bad memories, I still love the fact that I have them to fall back on for any damn thing in the world.

4. What is one dream you have not completed, and do you think you’ll be able to complete it?

Ans: If there’s one thing that sums me up besides being a drama queen, it is my ability to dream. Yes, I’m that girl who can dream with her eyes open, all day every day.

Hazaaron khwahishen aisi ki har khwahish pe dum nikle;
Bahut nikle mere armaan, lekin phir bhi kam nikle

(Thousands of desires, each worth dying for…
Many of them I have realized… yet I yearn for more!)

5. If you could be someone else for one day, who would it be?

Ans: Sorry for the cheesiness but I’d love to be Shahrukh Khan. It’d be something to get into his mind and read his thoughts. Yes, I’m a hard core Team SRK girl and as much as I like him on big screen, I do admire his quick wittedness, sense of humor (maybe crass at times) & love, adulation & admiration for his family.

Nominations:

http://mridubala.wordpress.com

http://singingsparrows.wordpress.com

http://soumyav.wordpress.com

http://dreamtheimmpossible.wordpress.com

http://sakshivashist.wordpress.com

Sorry I have just 5 nominations!

Happy Blogging! :-)

Blog of the year 2012!

I am humbled and grateful to Mridula for thinking that my haven of words and random ramblings is worthy enough to be nominated for the “Blog of the Year 2012”.

Appreciate your gesture totally, Mridula. Many thanks.

Here are the rules to accept this award:

1 Select the blog(s) you think deserve the ‘Blog of the Year 2012’ Award
2 Write a blog post and tell us about the blog(s) you have chosen – there’s no minimum or maximum number of blogs required – and ‘present’ them with their award.
3 Please include a link back to this page ‘Blog of the Year 2012’ Award – and include these ‘rules’ in your post (please don’t alter the rules or the badges!)
4 Let the blog(s) you have chosen know that you have given them this award and share the ‘rules’ with them
5 You can now also join our Facebook page – click the link here ‘Blog of the Year 2012’ Award and then you can share your blog with an even wider audience
6 As a winner of the award – please add a link back to the blog that presented you with the award – and then proudly display the award on your blog and sidebar … and start collecting stars…

ok, let’s start…

I would like to nominate the following blogs for the Blog of the Year 2012:

http://dreamysap.wordpress.com/

http://singingsparrows.wordpress.com/

http://dreamtheimmpossible.wordpress.com/

http://sakshivashist.wordpress.com/

http://renserberit.wordpress.com/

http://momentmatters.wordpress.com/

Collect the star and grab some more before it ends! Happy Blogging! :-)

Love Story!

“Sheer Brilliance” is all he could muster the courage for to say to her after her presentation to the Board. She blushed, smiled and walked away without uttering a word leaving the whiff of her fragrance behind in the air, which completely engulfed him. And it is in this moment he knew this was more than mere infatuation. He realized what she meant to him. The very thought of her made his heart flutter. Every time she walked past him, he’d give her a fleeting glance. He knew he was smitten over her entrancing smile and deep, big, kohl smudged eyes which hid so many different emotions in them. He wanted to know everything about her. He wanted to hold her, feel her breath, run his fingers through her hair and experience the warmth of her body against his.

This is how it all started. The very beginning of their love story.

Poetic Justice!

The moonlight, tonight, exuded exceptional radiance, retiring the darkness early. It looked surreal.

Maybe it was the mind, playing some tricks.

He left me, at the altar, only to marry another devilishly beautiful woman. And today, she left him for a rich and powerful industrialist.

He burst into tears, helplessly.

And I, somehow, smiled. Wickedly.

Dream New Dreams!

“Life is a precious gift, and I don’t intend to waste a day of it. Have I experienced tragedy? Yes, I have. But it would be another real tragedy if I didn’t recover from the sadness I have felt and thus missed the many happy moments along the way. Was my dream crushed? Yes, it was. And that will happen again. But when it does, I will pick up those pieces and create something new.” – Jai Pausch

I remember I shed bucket loads of tears when I first saw Randy Pausch’s “The last lecture” in Sep, 2007. And I have no idea how many times I’ve watched it since. At that time, Randy was suffering from pancreatic cancer & doctors had given him the final blow. He had only 2-3 months to live. But when you watch the hour long video, all you see is humor, passion for life, his upbeat & joyful nature. One moment in that video that broke my heart is when he calls his wife on stage to blow the candle on the gigantic cake she was surprised with. She hugs him & all I could think was what she should have told him at that moment. Following his video & word of mouth, he became an overnight sensation. I started following his blog like crazy where he kept updating his health status. So many people were praying for his good health & hoping for a miracle. He published a book bearing the same name as his video with a co-author. And it’s indeed no surprise; I bought the book when it came out. I just couldn’t wait to grab my own copy and read it as a memoir. And it’s in there that he mentioned what his wife said to him when she hugged him during that seminar. She said “Please don’t die.” You know life is made of magical moments like these. I couldn’t even imagine what a life Jai would lead after his death. How unbearably hard it would be for her to be a single parent to a 6,3,2 year old in tow.

I hadn’t thought about them in a very long time. You know with time everything heals. It indeed puts you in situations where you tend to forget things which at some point meant something to you. That’s exactly what happened with me. With every passing day, their memory started fading and I got busy with my daily routine of living life. It’s now time took me back in the same pace because his wife Jai has written a memoir chronicling her life from the moment it took a turn. It’s a poignant read and you connect with her at a very personal level. She talks about her hardships, nightmares and her life post Randy. And of new promises and dreams and a new man in her and her kids’ life. The book has such a positive outlook that having gone through a tragedy how she picked up the pieces and moved on not only for her kids but also for herself and her sanity. It’s about her courage, hope and optimism to have a bright and happy life. It’s her daily effort to keep those sweet memories of the past alive in her present that moves you to tears. The balance she is still trying to strike between the present and the past is what the essence of this book is and what makes you connected to her at some level.

Happily ever after!

Standing on the porch, feeling the rain droplets on her face, she was reminded of his smile. She knew this was it. It was time. She closed her eyes and saw his face. One last time. Felt contended and breathed her last.

Only to be with him. Forever. Happily ever after.